And I am not going to become Red House Captain.
I was really thinking a lot yesterday, and after talking to Amanda for more than 3hours
And we're both rather upset, thinking of everything and anything
You have no idea what it means to us, to be voted House Captains.
If the school had given me this opportunity to become House Captain earlier in the year,
I would definitely have accepted it willingly, probably even happily.
This is the first time, I have had so many people vote for me.
To have so many people having faith in you, I never had that before.
Like, even when I was voted Netball Captain, I felt that it was only because my other teammates weren't even dedicated to my CCA, and that there was no other option.
But this, this is different, they had so many other people up there and they picked me.
Me.
And I have to disappoint.
People have been telling me that this is a once-in-a-lifetime experience, that you will never have a chance like this again, that I can do it because I have people to back me up.
I know that.
I know that it's a honour, I know that I can lead, I know that it would have been fun.
I know.
But the issue is now not my ability, but rather what I am willing to sacrifice.
The sacrifice pertaining to this fucking issue, is my O Levels.
And I don't think I am willing to do that.
At the end of the day, I will be the one who receives the Certificate.
At the end of the day, I will be the one who doesn't do well.
I will be responsible for my own results, and possibly my own future.
At that point in time, how can the people who say that they will back me up, even help?
They couldn't even if they tried.
I'm not even delving in the topic of whether my friends will really help me.
I know that they will, and I trust that they will.
Which is why I feel so horrible now.
The teachers immediately came to me when I was crying like fuck.
They told me that I could do it, especially with the help of all my friends and schoolmates.
If I needed, they would tutor me.
And it's true that our St Nicks teachers are probably the most dedicated teachers,
But. Do. We. Have. The. Time?
No.
One month
One month before my Prelims.
Even if the teachers help me, I will never be able to do four months' work in a month.
Even if I don't sleep and eat, I will never have time to complete my studying.
Besides, who's to say that I would have settled down immediately after Sports Day?
This entire post may be seem extremely selfish and thoughtless of me,
would you not have done the same thing?
I am not a star athlete, I am not the most outstanding leader, neither am I the student consistently scoring A1s.
All I have, all I'm banking on, is my studies.
Which is why I have to give this up.
It's all about being in the right place in the right time.
In August, I would think that the right place for me to be, would be studying at home.
If the school wanted the SecFours to lead, they should have had Sports Day in April/May.
If the school wanted their Sports Day in August, choose leaders from SecThrees.
If the school had actually sort out their thoughts, none of this rubbish would happen.
All I really wanted to do, was to run my races and help out whenever I am needed.
Which is probably what is going to happen.
I promise I will help out as much as I can, I promise!
But I don't really feel like facing the music.
Like the people who ask me, "Dionne why did you reject", "Dionne, don't la don't la"
I'm trying to push these thoughts into a small little corner of my mind,
so I will stop thinking.
Sorry.
(Thanks Amanda, Nat, Vanessa for today though!)
Thursday, April 23, 2009 | 6:00 AM
Three cheers for SN Track!
Woohoo, they're awesome :-D
And there were a lot of other fast runners as well, who are really cool.
Like the RJC girl with the long hair, she should cut her hair though, it's kinda weird
Plus the ACS Indian Boy/RJC A Boys in the 1500m races who were lightning fast.
Plus Fiona, haha, cool much!
Watching others make me feel like running competitively again.
Like you just start thinking subconsciously, I kind of expected that though
It feels kind of weird being a by-stander, instead of being in races and all.
But I had fun screaming my lungs out!
And meeting people I used to know, but forgot about.
As I expected, I sort of lost my voice
(Chew on that)
During the track meet, I took bets with Weiqing.
D: "Actually I have an advantage over you. Because I know something that you don't"
WQ: "WHAT? The ones with the smallest nehnehs run the fastest ah?"
D: "NO LA, THE FASTEST RUNNERS ARE IN LANE 4!!!!!!!"
Weiqing, even though we stopped betting after the first race, you still owe me ten cents.
HAHAHA Sickening right, but I had tonnes of fun with them!!!!!
I realize that now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere, and I'm not good enough to be in anywhere. (Eg. Not Netball, Not Track & Field, Not X-Country)
Which kind of sucks.
Maybe I should join a CCA like Dance HAHAHAHA.
You wish, I'm kidding. (Please don't anyhow take out that comma)
But I still like/love running anyway :-D
For now, I shall concentrate on getting my 6points...
ANYWAY LOOK HERE:
Hot right? I know
His name is Carl but he's gay.
I have nothing against him, I just think he's really good-looking!
He has puppy-dog eyes and ultra-long lashes ♥♥♥♥♥♥
GO TYPE CARLKR IN YOUTUBE :-D
Which makes me wonder, why are Singaporean Gays so gross.
(I am constantly reminded of the guy in AMKhub with the green G-string)
Why can't they be normal and hot, like him?
Okay but it'd be so sad if all the hot guys were gay.
So I guess that's good, for us in a way.
Not that Singapore has any hot guys. At. All. I. Swear.
(But okay, the male trackers today...their legs are darn nice!)
Jialing: "Their pants are so tight...You can see their cocoons
bulging out"
Okay she said ke-ku aka Kuku but Grace Chan heard it wrong.
But still darn funny.
Woohoo I saw Amanda Lau my Greadygirl friend :-D ♥
+The Prince Lebeon Lau from Victoria #1 in 100meters is her brother,
and I was just saying that guy's sister must be called Princess...in the end.
OMG
+ The Slinky Sewer Rat
Here you go:
Pictures from a random training.
Goodbye, I am going to do my pucking Puck essay now!
Labels: Butterflies, Cocoons, Good-looking gays, St Nicks Is Awesome, Track and Field
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 | 3:02 AM
"Hello there Starfire, Welcome to Earth" said Josie.
I haven't been sleeping well since God knows how many months
I keep dreaming and dreaming and when I wake up it feels like I've been half-sleeping
And that sucks :-(
I was just talking to WeiQing Tan during Chinese Period today, because Abeagle wasn't around. We were just 'telling the truth' and suddenly whoah, it became a really big group of 7 people.
Somehow we ended up talking about Primary School stuff, haha WQ is ultra funny please.
"Celine banged down the wall when I was peeing. And she really banged it down. She was never the same again."
-Supporting Track&Field on Thursday, I'm egg-cited!
-Today is Free Cone Day!
-Tomorrow is Earth Day!
AHYDKZM
(Marina Bay)
Lynette Goh claims that I look at her very lovingly.
Ultra-sick please, urgh haha
Saturday, April 18, 2009 | 10:13 PM
I WENT TO THE 李伟菘 李偲菘〈好友音乐排队〉2009 LAST
NIGHT OMG.
HAHAHAHA I THINK THEY ARE DAMN CUTE PLEASE :-D
THEY CAN SING + COMPOSE + PLAY GOD KNOWS HOW MANY FREAKING INSTRUMENTS!
DAMN RETARDED, I WAS WITH MY BROPHE AND MY MOM. SO I WAS SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF...ALONE
AIYAH DAMN LAZY TO ELABORATE, HAHA I HAD A GOOD TIME THOUGH.
BYE!
Thursday, April 16, 2009 | 4:45 AM
Nanyang Girls’ High stun defending champions Singapore Sports
School to enter National B Division netball final
I'm impressed, really.
Sports School lost to Nanyang by 5 goals
Well done NYGH man.
The underdogs won (Frankly, I really didn't expect this)
This is what Melissa means when she says a not-so-good team (Not that they're not good, but Sports School is supposed to be Sports School) can beat a team of "star players" with their fighting spirit and all, I guess.
I really feel like skipping training to watch the finals.
It's going to be so exciting, but I think the match will be during school hours
So I guess I'll just have to pray and hope Redsports covers it
(Twists fingers)
P.S/Melissa's last training was yesterday. OMG :-(
Hopefully Miss Leong trains us
HAHA Lookie Lookie here.
Weiqing writes note to Abigail: "You just shut up and drive"
Abigail to Dionne: Quick, quick, quick, help me think of something to reply!
Dionne: "Stop Disturbia-ing me la! HAHAHAHA"
And we burst out in laughter, I've been laughing quite a fair bit recently haha.
That weird thing beside me is too gay haha :-D
EXCELLENT JOB DANCE GIRLS, I MEAN FULL-TIME 抹姐S ON
YOUR GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!
HAHAHA ALL THE WAY CHINESE CULTURAL SOCIETY FOR
TOMORROW!
Don't you know, you can go and be your own miracle?
You got it in you, find it within you.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 | 6:06 AM
WARNING: I AM FEELING REALLY MOODY
This was what I looked like when I was angry at the age of four :-)
Should I blog about the good, or the bad first?
Okay the good stuff
....
Moving on to the bad stuff,
....
Moving on to the bad stuff,
Firstly, OMG
I am horribly jealous (of the unmentionables)
I'm so jealous, it's not even natural.
Argh, must they be so smart and zai!
I am so jealous :-(
Next,
I'm so jealous, it's not even natural.
Argh, must they be so smart and zai!
I am so jealous :-(
Next,
I (kind of) dread school, even though irritating Abigail Tang is fun, but still.
I'm counting down days till weekends, or till the end of lessons.
Seriously, they are now grading our (fucking) CME booklets.
Honestly, is that really stupid or what!
Now they make us do dumb vocal exercises in a pathetic attempt to make us sing the National Anthem.
I wonder how long it will take before they realize it's not going to work.
Plus PE isn't even fun anymore, with all the training for NAPFA :-(
Amanmad is going for her track competition, which means I will be alone tomorrow
I'm counting down days till weekends, or till the end of lessons.
Seriously, they are now grading our (fucking) CME booklets.
Honestly, is that really stupid or what!
Now they make us do dumb vocal exercises in a pathetic attempt to make us sing the National Anthem.
I wonder how long it will take before they realize it's not going to work.
Plus PE isn't even fun anymore, with all the training for NAPFA :-(
Amanmad is going for her track competition, which means I will be alone tomorrow
ANYWAY, ALL THE BEST SNTRACK&FIELD!
PLUS DANCE GIRLS! :-D I HOPE Y'ALL GET YOUR GWH.
Here are a few pictures, from here and there, although you've probably seen them on Facebook :-)
At the Post-Season Party
Our supposed Family Portrait, haha.
Oinkletletotosis is the family pet!
Hiiiiii Limin hahaha
Oinkletletotosis is the family pet!
Hiiiiii Limin hahaha
Daryl Lee: My younger brother on his Eleventh Birthday making his birthday wish :-D
Haha okay la, I'd admit that I think he's quite cute here!
He looks like he's wishing so hard for something
"I cannot live without my life, I cannot live without my soul"
Heathcliff in the Wuthering Heights
"I cannot live without my life, I cannot live without my soul"
Heathcliff in the Wuthering Heights
That lil' pink doggy was my favourite toy then.
Haha, what I wouldn't give to be four again.
****** LET ME SHOW YOU SOMETHING GROSS THAT DAWN
WROTE TO SHARON.
妹子
不要问。只要相信
康子 <3
HAHAHA I KNOW IT'S FROM THAT SHE DIAO SHOW.
BUT IT'S STILL GROSS HAHAHA.
NOW THEY COME AND TELL ME THAT I'M GROSS AFTER I SHOW THEM WHY THAT NOTE IS GROSS...WALAO EH HAHA.
You can freaking imagine this weird guy pressing his index finger on the girl's lips and saying those words what, no?!
And. That. Is. Sick.
A picture of dignity, grace and courage.
(Rather ironic, that the picture is taken in black and white.)
I like the way she (Elizabeth Eckford) carries herself.
The way she holds her head high, and looks straight on, amidst all the chaos surrounding her.
It was her First Day of School, when they let 9 Black students in an All-White girls' school.
Cool much :-D
I like people who can stand up for themselves, and their beliefs.
K BYE!
Wednesday, April 01, 2009 | 6:00 AM
Happy April Fool's Day!
Both Mrs Christina Tan and Mrs Tan Mui Fong are darn lame.
I was locked out of class after recess today haha.
When I reached class, I was like "EH WHY Y'ALL DON'T WANT TO GO IN?!"
And someone shouted, "MRS TAN IS PREGNANT!!!!!"
Apparently Mrs Tan Mui Fong was to teach us Math for a month,
so Mrs Christina Tan could rest.
She even asked us to take out our textbooks and do Question 2 of Exercise 15C can?!
EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE CLASS BELIEVED HER LOR...
EVEN WHEN MRS CHRISTINA TAN WALKED IN THE CLASS,
ME AND ABIGAIL THOUGHT THAT SHE CAME TO TELL US THE GOOD NEWS!
But they shouted, "Happy April Fool's Day!!!!"
4Hope screamed for at least 5 minutes I swear.
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PS: MELISSA AND YIWEI (COOL GREY BADGE SENIORS)
PRANKED MISS SUSAN LIM WITH THE FREAKING SHOCK
CHEWING GUM.
HAHAHAHAHAHA IT'S DAMN FUNNY, MISS LIM JUMPED LA, LITERALLY!
AND AFTER THAT SHE PRETENDED TO KICK THEM IN THE "ANGRY" WAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUNNY FUNNY FUNNY! THEY'RE DARN DARING PLEASE HAHAHA
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Failed Pranks (Phail Phail Phail)
V, your April Fool's prank was darn lame. Hahaha
"Hey I'm outside your hour now. I can't take it anymore. Life sucks. Can you come out and meet me for awhile please, I really need you. Just for a while."
Hahahaha damn disgusting please. I really need you too, Vaness!
Since when did you even confide in me like that manz...
I didn't even scroll down before I replied you, lor.
We tried to trick Mrs Lee after the Mrs Tans tricked us.
We wanted to pretend someone told us that we had a test, then we studied freaking hard.
But when we asked her "How long was the test?"
SHE TOLD US THREE HOURS. WALAO HAHAHAHA
Addie added (haha) Yupi Gummy worms into Munn, Daphne and Qing's drink.
Haha they found out even before they took a sip (!!!)
Addie (See I know you love red) tried to superglue a twenty cent coin on the forum floor.
They bet Mag and Sng will go fight over the coin.
But it wasn't even stuck on properly! Haha but it was quite smart.
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Other Updates!
- COT Outing, hahaha. (Finally, a complete meeting!)
Dawn and I should totally go be nuns.
Our love lives are inactive, hahahahahaha.
At least she gets to see Hot Guys in her school
I'm like, "WHERE DID ALL THE HOT SINGAPOREAN GUYS GO?"
HAHAHA
- When we were going through Sexual Reproduction, we started talking about flashers.
Well, when Miss Dawn Lim saw a flasher, and she took a photograph of him and his you-know-what?!?!
She was like "Since he wants to show, I put on the Internet and help him publicize lor."
Look who's the pervert now haha!
AAAH GOTTA GO BYE :-D
Anyway, fight hard tomorrow StNicks, love you guys!
(Haha I look darn gross in both, because we took the pictures after the game, and I was like all sweaty and wet)
(This is an excuse, HAHA)